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Sunday, July 04, 2021

So now I’m dating again—I’m finding all new ways to humiliate myself

 By Steve Otto

One year I was watching the Mary Tyler Moore show and Anchor man Ted Baxter was about to do an editorial on how the women in Minneapolis rejected him a lot. He was about to complain that he couldn’t score, when it came to the women. Moore yelled at him and insisted he didn’t do that. That would seem a no-brainer, but here I am writing about my dating experiences since Cam died in January.

So here I am at my blog that doesn’t get near as many readers or watchers as Ted got, which was in the millions. And I often purposely try to discourage people from reading this particular blog. I could always post stuff on Fasebook if I wanted more people to read it and more suggestions from those people. It is the suggestions I don’t want—especially those people that tell me—it ain’t that bad if you never get a date or end up staying alone. Maybe I won’t get a date. Maybe I’ll get rejected. This won’t be the first time. I have to admit, many years ago I went through a suicidal faze. I grew out of it. But I still have days where I ask myself—why didn’t I pull the trigger? Why didn’t I blow my brains out? What did I get out of staying alive? And yet here I am.

So, I’ve gone to this place called Elite Singles. I’m trying to get people a little closer to my age. The dating scene here in Wichita doesn’t seem to exist for me at all. I’ve tried going to bars and that seems like a complete waist of time. I remember having better luck in the town of Lawrence or Oklahoma City. I was a lot younger then. And it wasn’t real good at those places. But it wasn’t as bad as Wichita. So now I’m finally trying a dating site and it hasn’t got me anywhere yet.

It figures that one of the first people I have heard back from, caused me to get a warning that she may be a scammer. Am I surprised? No. I already hear from then all the time at Facebook. Many are from Florida or other far away places. So, I can’t just drive across town and meet them. Also, no one from this area has made an effort to meet me in Wichita, or any where near here. I made it very clear at Elite Singles, I want to meet someone near by, less than 50 miles away. I don’t want to go to Florida and I’m not springing for the cash if someone wants me to pay for their travel—forget it. I’m also not going to pay $500 for sex or what ever, as one woman suggested nor am I going to pay $5. That’s just not what I’m into. I think prostitution laws are stupid. But that doesn’t mean I want to do that. I’m looking for a laid back relation ship that won’t drain me—physically, emotionally or financially.

So far all I’ve gotten is rejection. I used to get that a lot in high school. The good side of all of this is I haven’t had a lot of people giving me advice. I’ve had at least one person do that and I have made a point of ignoring her. If there is one thing I don’t want it’s advice.

So at least I’m not as pathetic looking as Ted.




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